Xanga has been loyal to me, so I have returned to praise it and honour it in its glory.  I went back and started to look through all of my old entries.  Its unimaginable how I致e been through so much, so many changes have happened... but... I知 still me.  I知 proud of myself for prevailing through time as the same self.  This world can稚 change me.  This　心　is invincible.

Well, as for me... life really hasn稚 been that interesting.  Life here is just, a lot of hanging out and enjoying myself, and studying. I kind of like it though... but at the same time, it値l be good to be home.  Only 4 months... god.  It痴 almost over, and I hated it so damn much when I began.... now time is just moving so rapidly, and I知 not really ready to go back.  Next month is supposed to be super busy, December too, so basically I have to do a lot of preparing right now.  That and losing weight... I feel fat (...don稚 I always?  But this time I mean it).

I think psychologically, being here has affected me.  I致e been able to see what I value more, and have stayed close to my closest friends in CA, even though I知 a million miles away.  It really means so much to me that they are with me.  Plus it痴 really exciting learning so many languages (trying to keep a hold of Spanish, master Japanese, and learn French all at once).  I think knowing many languages also helps you psychologically, especially when you start thinking in different languages.  So many different views... that I知 trying to shove into my head.  It痴 such an amazing feeling when you manage to though.

I swear it痴 amazing how my Japanese has improved.  I致e been writing a speech... well translating a speech that I wrote in English into Japanese, and although I make a lot of minor errors... it... it makes sense.  That痴 what scares me, because right now I am using grammar points in my speech that I have not learned in class yet, but I use them correctly.I can think like they do.Shit. But I値l never speak like a native, and that lingering thought somewhat depresses me.