I just don`t really give a shit right now.  : ) It`s not a bad thing though...

Is it bad that I`m already in the mood to head back to America?  I love my friends here but, the cultural ideas are pretty fucked up... and school is lame.  I don`t know, I miss the freedom and expression of oneself America has to offer.  I like being treated more like an adult... and well... Japan is lame.  Sure, it`s got anime and kimonos, but it`s not really that exciting.  Plus the fact that I`m a foreigner makes it not even worth it to try to become a part of society here.  You`re always a gaijin, always an outsider, and thus will never ever be treated the same.  What`s the use of trying.  Hah.  I guess I`m getting bored of here, huh?  Whatever.  I`ve been getting nervous about the shitloads of work I must do when I get back, so I really feel like just facing them down and dealing with them.  Plus I just cannot wait to see friends and family.

I`m probably going to be choking on these words when I get back to America.  As with any move I have made.  There are always regrets in what I say.  Will I ever find a home where I belong?  I guess California is a place I can consider home, I was born there and moved back there again and again all my life.